I tend to have some of the most strange interactions with people. Most of them because of the random collection of Firefighting t-shirts and west point “Go Army, beat Air Force” shirt. Just this last week I was sitting at one of the on campus coffee shops during lunch time when I gentleman asked if I was in the Army. It happens that he was ex-special forces and was now enrolled the grad program. At first I was resistant to having him sit down and talk- I was up to my neck in coursework and I was frustrated with it. I did not want to be talking to anyone. But he asked to sit and eat his lunch, and I was not going to say no. He shared testimony with me as he at a Philly cheesesteak. I could hear his heart for people, especial for military service members and his desire for people to be encouraged by the Gospel.
I am glad that I let him sit. I was highly encouraged by this gentleman’s testimony. It was a reminder not to get so self focused when I get stressed. I find that I collapse in on myself, putting all my attention on myself when I get stressed. That collapsing in on myself does not bring relief from stress.
This week pulled 525 for 5 singles- that was yesterday and today was the first time I have woken up sore from a deadlift work out in a long time. I felt good to be able to walk up to a bar and pull that weight. I am still making gains, but it is fighting tooth and nail for them. I like what training for deadlift, not so happy with my squats. That is something I am going to revisit this week and address in training next week- my volume it not what I want and linear progression has become very hard to maintain. My weight loss may have something to do about this… or I am just not mentally getting.
I weighted myself earlier this week, I was near 242- lower than I expected. I have cut protein powder out of my diet for the most part. I rather have more food and substance than drinking my protein. I was looking at the cost and it is less expensive to buy more chicken than using protein powder. I like protein powder, but on my budget it is not worth the cost. I guess there is a upside to not being a hard gainer.
This week was bracketed with tests- a test in Gospel of John to start the week and ending with a test in Rhetoric theories. What a lovely bunch of coconuts… Like I shared last week, tests taking has not been the same as in previous semester and it is scares me. I got my grade back for my test last week- it says I did really well on it, 95ish%. Personally, I think they gave me the wrong test grade, but I will see on Tuesday…
However, this stress pushes me to examine myself. How am doing mentally? Am I engaging with people? Am I wasting time and if so, are those thing I am doing that are wasting my time beneficial or harmful in any way? I am depending on habit to pull me through tough situations or am leaning into God?
That last question is probably the most important of the aforementioned ones. It is a reminder that I may be able to do things in my own power, but it pales in comparison to Christ. I was reminded of the fact that there is nothing I can do to earn my righteousness before God. There is no way that I can do right by the law, especial in my own strength. My righteous is in Christ; and in him I find rest, restoration and strength.