It is has been just over a week since I have stepped on to campus and started academic career at Biola university in southern California. It is hard for me to fathom the fact that I am here.
Today it the last day of peace and quite on the campus. Tomorrow starting at 8 AM, this campus will be flooded with incoming freshmen, transfers and the parents of those aforementioned person. My roommate arrives too, so I can finally settle in properly. (I plan to be gone most the day to avoid all the craziness of moving, watching all that chaos is a sure way for me to go crazy a bit too soon for the semester…)
I spent something this morning sitting in my folding armchair in front of my dorm, facing the half empty parking lot, enjoying the crispness of the morning and the sun coming over the trees and roof lines. I read a Psalms and the reflected on the last 4-6 months leading up to this moment. My mind was a washed with a multitude of emotions and thoughts.
I had halfway expected butterflies, nervousness, and the other associated emotions that accompanying a new situation, such as starting at a university. There has been none, I have had a peace since I have arrived on campus. I usually say, “If you ain’t nervous, something is wrong or you have been in one place too long.” I do not think that this is the wrong decision, nor have I been here too long. I think there is a peace about this because this is where I am suppose to be. God has surrounded me with peace beyond my understanding.
I believe the last six months been the most engaged in the Word and prayer that I have been in the past few years. I believe that is largely part in why I am so calm and ok with this decision despite the large financial and time constraints. For all of my adult life until this time, I could proudly say that I had never been in debt- now I have student loan and no longer have a full-time job that I have goon accustom to working… I have come to terms of what needs to be done and measures that I must take to accomplish these things that must be done. (Y’all know about ring by spring… thank goodness that the brides family pays for the wedding… I kid… sort of…) God gracious and good, knowing what I want and providing what I need.
I think the biggest change that I have made in my life in the last few months was spending the first 5 minutes of my wakeful day, just as I come to in my bed praying; thanking, praising and exalting God for who he is and what he has done; dedicating the day the the one who allowed to be. I has made the world of difference in my mind set.
In reality, I really should have only posted about half of this. It is now move in day, and the chaos of move is well underway, I am in one of the smallest dorms, so move in is not too crazy, but crazy none the less. I pray for peace and perseverance to those who are embarking on their academic endeavors at all levels. Pray about everything.